Older and Stupider

I did it again - the same mistake that I keep making. Do I expect that things will change? A few sweet words, no doubt cajoled out of the same lying mouth, and I fell for it. Again. Promises made, and I was in heavn. Promises broken, as always, and I am in the bottom of hell. Crashed. Burned. My heart ached and the pain is unbearable. To think it through, it is not pain, but disappointment, a disappointment that has been building that has left me feeling hopeless and unworthy. He doesn't want me, yet he lies with his sweet words that gave me false hope. Again. Stupid that I am, I bought it, and here I am, writing the same thing all over again. I don't learn, do I?